looking glass
It has been one year since I applied for my permanent residence visa in Turkiye. I have been rejected twice and have concluded that it’s time to deconstruct the home I created.
I am grieving this event in my bones. I feel fractured and confused.
I trusted my gut instinct, followed my heart, listened to the tremble of my soul, and placed myself in Istanbul.
So why was I rejected? Why has it been so challenging for me to engage in this location?
When I go out to the woods and walk until my body is bursting with beads of sweat and scented by wildflowers, I feel that leaving is the correct choice.
I have a new appreciation for the phrase beyond the looking glass.
I’ve embodied it as a statement of faith.
There is so much I cannot see, comprehend, or anticipate - I must trust in the ongoing unfoldment of events, no matter what I think, feel, or want.
For now, I am reflecting on the gifts, lessons, precious moments, and other treasures I’ve amassed in the last year. I experienced some terrific upheavals that showed me different angles into my self.
This pain will inspire new poems and move through me like prisms of light. I already feel brighter from expressing my truth.
It is not a choice: my actions are eventual. I already know what I will do, and to act in any other way would be a lie, for it would not be congruent with my soul.
I have faith in what lies beyond the looking glass: the identity I shaped has blossomed like the flowers in my herbal tea.
Those hard little buds opened with the warm water. I watched the yellow petals spread, and as I drank the last drop, the leaves turned to mush at the bottom of my glass cup.
And so, it’s time to add to the compost: to empty and release.
Sending you well wishes and perhaps a peek beyond your image in the mirror. …
Seraphina
PS - Your Zoom yoga class links are below!
JULY YOGA SCHEDULE
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VINYASA - TUESDAY, JUlY 23
7am pst | 10am est | 4pm cet | 5pm trt
CORPORATE YOGA CLASS
PILATES - THURSDAY, JULY 25
7am pst | 10am est | 4pm cet | 5pm trt
THIRTY MINUTE STRENGTH CLASS WITH (OPTIONAL) MEDITATION
KUNDALINI - SATURDAY, JULY 27
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SIXTY MINUTE KUNDALINI CLASS WITH MY FLOURISHES
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Strengthen the Energy Body - Pilates
Mudra for Protection - Meditation
Quote of the Week:
“It's no use going back to yesterday, because I was a different person then.”
Lewis Caroll
4 questions to brew on:
What does ‘beyond the looking glass’ mean to you?
When did you last listen to your heart, and what happened?
What lessons have surfaced in your last year?
Are you in a tea-sipping phase or a compost phase?
